Post by James Miller on Jul 26, 2009 22:39:28 GMT -5
Confessional
Tonight starts a new game for James. No joke. I was taking some time just a second ago to reflect on where I've come from, and it made me realize its time for some change.
By no means am I disappointed with the way I've planned the game up until this point. Not at all. I'm more than pleased with what I've done and where I've come from. I've played this game with an undeniable passion and a mindset that has been determined for the goal ahead the entire time.
However, I want to simplify it a little bit. I've been taking things too personally if you will. The Jaime vote. The Heidi vote. The fact that Greg and I haven't exactly seen eye to eye the entire time. JT's downfall. The fact that Stephenie and I have yet to even engage in conversation despite her being a very powerful player in this game.
It's time for some change.
I've actually already enacted on that idea a little bit. I sent everyone left in the game (minus Jamie --- not sure why not him but still...) a message. Everyone has a little something waiting for me in their inbox. I've relied to heavily on everyone liking me over the course of the past few rounds, so I really want to dig back in and get back to strategizing. A few rounds ago, I wrote about wanting to have the heart of a champion. That still stands. I feel like I gave a champion-like effort last round in the challenge, but I need more. I want more. For some reason, I'm never content with how much I've done in my game. I'm hungry. I've worked really hard in this game, and there is nothing I want more than to win it. Now that jury has come, it's time to take some steps towards making it happen. I want to play with no regrets.
New Game.
James
Tonight starts a new game for James. No joke. I was taking some time just a second ago to reflect on where I've come from, and it made me realize its time for some change.
By no means am I disappointed with the way I've planned the game up until this point. Not at all. I'm more than pleased with what I've done and where I've come from. I've played this game with an undeniable passion and a mindset that has been determined for the goal ahead the entire time.
However, I want to simplify it a little bit. I've been taking things too personally if you will. The Jaime vote. The Heidi vote. The fact that Greg and I haven't exactly seen eye to eye the entire time. JT's downfall. The fact that Stephenie and I have yet to even engage in conversation despite her being a very powerful player in this game.
It's time for some change.
I've actually already enacted on that idea a little bit. I sent everyone left in the game (minus Jamie --- not sure why not him but still...) a message. Everyone has a little something waiting for me in their inbox. I've relied to heavily on everyone liking me over the course of the past few rounds, so I really want to dig back in and get back to strategizing. A few rounds ago, I wrote about wanting to have the heart of a champion. That still stands. I feel like I gave a champion-like effort last round in the challenge, but I need more. I want more. For some reason, I'm never content with how much I've done in my game. I'm hungry. I've worked really hard in this game, and there is nothing I want more than to win it. Now that jury has come, it's time to take some steps towards making it happen. I want to play with no regrets.
New Game.
James
